When I got out of hospital in January 2017, I had a 50 mg depot of Haloperidol in my arm as a slow release drug and I was taking 5mg of Haloperidol orally morning and night. I had a crazy idea that I was going to move out of home and go and live in an apartment. I was all lined up. Luckily before it was to late I realised that there was no way I was going to be able to look after myself on my own. Mum seemed to be easier to get along with so I made the decision to stay at home. Mum and I were no longer fighting and she seemed to have changed her tune about not wanting me to live at home.
I didn’t look the best and apparently I didn’t smell the best either. When you have psychosis you sometimes lose your sense of smell so you have no idea when you stink. My hair was done in heaps of plaits and I was starting to get dreadlocks and couldn’t really wash it.
I was pretty depressed most of the time- I had no idea how I was going to get better, or if I was going to get better.
Mum started me on a whole pile of natural remedies. Here is the list she gave me most days:
4 Doterra Omega 3 capsules daily
4 Vitamin D
4 Rosehip Vital
1 Mediherb Vitamin B complex
2 Vitamin E
2 Mediherb Livco
At nighttime she gave me:
Kava herbal extract- 5ml
Passionflower herbal extract- 5 ml
Withania Herbal Extract- 5 ml
Reishi Mushroom capsules- 6 per night
We knew that all this would likely be helpful because it had been helpful in the past. I needed Mum to give it all to me day and night, plus the drug.
Mum also fed me lots of pine nuts because she read that they were a good food for the part of the brain that is affected in schizophrenia. She juiced up vegetables and fruits and things from the garden.
Two days after getting out of hospital I had a talk with my homeopath and he put me on Silica 30c twice a day. (Please note: homeopathics are prescribed for the person NOT the disease, so don't think Silica will work for you if you have schizophrenia- best to see a homeopath and get the right remedy for you)
I was sleeping for about 14 hours per day. This was similar to 2008 when I went on to Olanzapine- I could sleep up to 18 hours per day. It was as if my whole system just needed a good rest and my brain needed to repair itself.
Mum kept saying “You will get better, I don’t know how, but you will”. I wasn’t so convinced.
It’s tiring looking back to those days- I was so slow and suffering from the side effects of the drug- restless legs, needing to walk around all the time, blurry vision. The voices were dulled but they had not completely gone away. But I didn’t have any characters active inside me…..I just felt pretty crap.
The voices and characters are good for keeping you company when you feel like you don’t have any other friends. Everybody totally freaks out when they know that you are hearing voices. Characters also really freak them out. I just think that when you hear voices and have characters your brain is sick. I had sore feet for a long time before and while I was hearing voices. My sore feet made me unable to train and I feel as if that was a factor in me then hearing voices. Nobody seemed to be worried about the sore feet but everybody was worried about the voices.
A week after I got out of hospital I started getting PMS. Two weeks later the Haloperidol was put into my arm again. The PMS went on for 5 weeks and the psychiatrist decided that it may be a side effect of the Haloperidol in the arm, so decided to switch me to just oral medication. By March I no longer had the depot in the arm and my drug dose had reduced to just 3mg Haloperidol at night.
The psychiatrist said he was happy to work toward getting me on the lowest possible dose of the drug and he was good to his word. He respected my wishes and this is a big improvement to how the Mental Health System worked back in 2008-9.
Next blog I will tell you more about the natural therapies that helped my brain.